Meet me in the Living Room



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The living room is where I lay untethered to anything outside of me. The living room is where I am naked, unabridged, free to be and think and derive and contract. Here is where my mind thrives on chaos and rhythm, a drum I made with canvas and my own eardrums. Here is where you will find me utterly focused yet encompassed in yearning for, for, for. I ask you to stay for a little bit and be. Will you meet me here?




CLASSIFIEDS


A FRIEND IS SEEKING

✦ CHIEF OF STAFF JOB / NV / REMOTE
✦ IOS DEVELOPER JOB / OR / REMOTE
✦ AN ALL AMERICAN GIRL / NYC
✦ VINYL DJ GIGS / NYC
✦ DESIGN JOB / LA
✦ SUGAR DADDY / LA
✦ NYC>AMS BF / AMS

I AM SEEKING

~ A JOB IN [ ARTS, DESIGN, STUDIO ASSISTANT, ETC]
~ DO YOU WANT TO SUBLET MY STUDIO OR SHARE
~ THE BEST CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE IN NYC
~ A RADIO STATION TO PLAY SONGS (I’M NOT A DJ)
~ AN EASY BUT MIND BLOWING BOOK TO READ
~ FREE COFFEE + DINING TABLE

 HELP AN ARTSLUT OUT 


LET’S KEEP THE VIBE HIGH DO YOU HEAR ME?


DO YOU HEAR ME?



SHE TOLD ME THIS REMINDED HER OF ME, WHILE SHE WAS IN PUERTO RICO

YOU’VE NEVER SEEN ME LIKE THIS BEFORE BUT I’M SEETHING RED






IT’S LIKE A SYMPHONY IS PLAYING FOR ME BUT I CAN’T EVEN HEAR IT. WHAT ARE YOU SAYING.












THERE IS THE INTERNET AND THEN THERE IS US
I LOVE HUMAN CONNECTION I LOVE CONNECT I N G



I AM UNDEFINED I EAT BLOOD I HATE EVERYTHING I LOVE IT ALL I WANT I DON’T WANT DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

A SPECIAL CARE PACKAGE FROM A BEST FRIEND HEALS ALL







MY MIND MY MIND IS LIKE


SETLISTS

01. IS THIS DESIRE OR IS MY HEART JUST BEATING REALLY FAST
02. YOU’VE NEVER SEEN ME LIKE THIS BEFORE
03. AND UNDERNEATH IT ALL, I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED
04. remixing .. . :. — .-...


I WANT TO

+ WATCH ANORA
+ EAT RULE OF THIRDS
+ GET MY LIBRARY CARD
+ EAT DIM SUM
+ NINE INCH NAILS IN SEP
+ JOYFACE
+ GET A RECORD PLAYER





 SEND SOMETHING FOR ME TO DO 




ON JANUARY 31


I DREAMT

My friend and I were both eagles, however we were being chased by people and we had to fly higher into the clouds to be covered and not seen. Flying was incredibly cold—i tried to flap my wings as hard as I could (we were eagles of course), but it felt like they were able to catch up to us. In a quick second, we dived down to a restaurant as to hide within the ~humans~, but they quickly found us again. 

I didn’t know who my friend was. I wish I knew who he was, but I knew that he was there for me.

 I ATE

/ SOUP THAT DIANDRA MADE ME
/ BBQ PORK BUN THAT DUSTIN GOT ME
/ DULCE DE LECHE HOT COFFEE
/ TURKEY SANDWICH THAT I MADE
/ CARDAMOM BUN THAT SZABINA GOT ME

<3 Very grateful and full of love, thank you friends.


I WORE

/ MAKEUP
/ BLACK BACKPACK
/ A GREY BASEBALL CAP
/ COBALT BLUE HALTER TOP
/ BLACK BOOTY SHORTS
/ GREY SWEATPANTS
/ BLACK BOOTS (IT’S RAINING)


I DID

* Woke up at 10ish
* Went to the gym (I did 15 pushups, goal is 30! :o )
* Reconfigured the living room
* Ate lunch + prepared the day’s food
* Cried
* Applied to jobs all day
* Updated this website
* Cried some more
* Worked on my love performance





/*JESUUNA IS*/
.emotionally.{
feeling: grief;
hunger-level: wants a bite of a lasagna;
head: sleepy, with a hat on;
mind: overwhelmed;
heart: broken;
}
.thinking about{
love: when will i fall again;
career: it’s this year or it’s never;
family: missing my mom and dad;
friends: they’re there for me. always;
}
.desiring{
physically: skinny dipping in the ocean;
mentally: focus, intense focus;
emotionally: to stop crying;
}
/*END OF CURRENT STATE OF MIND*/



MEET ME HERE 







WE’VE AL MIGRATED TO WITNESSING EACH OTHER INSTEAD OF TALKING TO EACH OTHER. BRING BACK COMMUNITY,  CHAOTIC CONVERSING, IDEATION.

 




I AM NOT YOUR ART DEITY. 


DO NOT IDOLISE ME.
I THINK YOU KNOW I THINK YOU KNOW
© jesuuna 2025